Day 29 –> 20 Me!
I asked for this.
Because I loved.
I got hurt again.
Once again… I expected that someone would love me. Throwing a line out to sea… to see if I can catch a dream.
Earlier, I heard that the guy I love is courting someone… someone I don’t know.
He was asked and he was more than happy to share the whole story. It so happens that I’m sitting opposite him.
My team mate told me that if I love someone… THIS TIME, don’t tell the guy how I feel.
I tend to do that.
All my crushes before, for example, whenever I feel lighthearted, I just blurt out those words, “You know I like you right? It’s the kind of like that I want to be with you.”
And this time, my male team mate told me to act like a normal girl.
Flirt with a lot of guys and make them think I like them but would turn out that I don’t care about them.
But I’m too honest for that.
How can I just change?
When I don’t like something, I say it.
When I like something, I say it.
Cos I don’t want misunderstandings to happen.
But isn’t that exactly what happened now? Maybe my crush thought that I wouldn’t like him since I always call him “big brother” like I do with all the males in the office who are older than me… cos I was raised to be polite even when unnecessary and especially to those who is not my family.
I felt like I lost love and opportunity. DAMN.
DON’T MAKE HIM FALL FOR ANYONE ELSE BUT ME LORD!! Yes, like the others in love, I’m selfish. If I let go of him easily, that means that I didn’t really like him. And, I really… really… really.. like him!
How can I make you fall?